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15 March 2012 @ 11:02 pm
Never eat Japanese sausages again...every time I try to eat them I can only handle one or two and then they make me feel like I want to throw up. 8(
I think the reason is its probably a problem of my own mind because for some reason they just tend to freak me out. Well, sausages in general kinda freak me out, but these ones just really do me in...its like they're too perfect looking or something and so I imagine they're disgusting on the inside. XD

Yeah...I'm weird. LOOL
04 January 2012 @ 06:52 pm

This photo right here...is like the embodiment of a dream for me.
You know, I think there are lots of people out there who take things for granted.
I know a number of Mana fans now who own Jeune Filles and majority of those fans haven't even been fans for long nor do they seem as dedicated...

Of course this jeune fille doesn't belong to me, it belongs to the ESP craft house.
I just got lucky that I have a friend whos friends with people who work there so they let me play with it for a while.

But sometimes it just kinda gets to me...how some people can get things that another person can only DREAM of getting and the people who have it just brush it off casually like "eh, no big deal".
To me, this custom made beautiful one of a kind guitar IS a big deal!!
I guess it sounds silly because its just a guitar...but this guitar is symbolic for so many things that mean the world to me.

I guess I would be hypocritical if I said I didn't take things for granted -- hell, we all do it.
Something like this just comes to show how sometimes we need to step back and think of all the blessings in our lives, because what we already have may be someone else's dream.

Anyway, just wanted to say that.
It may seem small and slightly insignificant, but this was something that really touched me yesterday.
31 December 2011 @ 06:21 pm
Do you have any regrets from this year?

31 December 2011 @ 07:56 am
Long time, no post!

I don't have anything particularly interesting to say, I just kinda wanted to write down some of my thoughts and reflections today...

You know, I remember quite clearly way back when I FIIIIRST got into my fascination with Mana. I knew right then and there I wanted more than anything to get to know him and meet him and such.
I've come a long way since then, haven't I?

Well, the point is theres something bigger than Mana I remember at that time.
Back in those days I was a pretty big Michael Jackson fan -- I couldn't stop listening to his music, it was not only catchy, the message was also really meaningful to me.
One day I had an epiphany that I'll never forget. Actually, I think it was quite life changing because without that epiphany I wouldn't be where I am today.

I remember looking up things about Mana on my computer and at the same time I was listening to the song "Man in the Mirror"
Some how the lyrics of that song sank in deep, and I remember particularly the message about how if you want to make a change its up to YOU to do it.

For some reason that connected with Mana as well...you know, I HONESTLY don't know why it did...of all people and all things. I just knew I wanted Mana and it hit me that if this is what I want sooo badly then its true, it IS up to me to get to where I want to be in life.

I think I used to think even so much as visiting Japan was an unrealistic dream, so how could I even dream of meeting Mana? But that was just it...if thats really what I wanted in life, it was up to ME to go for it -- not to listen to other people and their doubts, but to go for what I feel deep down inside despite any negativity.

You know, I still think I sort of live by that today, only the goal has become tougher and more challenging.
Sometimes I'm unsure if I'm being tried or if I need to learn to let go in life. That is such a fine line.
I went so strong for so long, hell, I still do...but I'm at a point where I'm not sure where to go or what to do which is extremely frustrating.

...Sometimes I just wonder if I'm doing the right thing after all... My heart tells me I am, but I can't help but wonder.

Anyway, heres to fresh starts in the New Year and the hope of what is to come in life. ♥

21 October 2011 @ 11:34 pm
Why hello there livejournal!!

Its been FOREVER since I've posted here, but all be honest, I guess I'm in a funk so I kinda miss it lately.

Anyway, heres to my 3rd year living in Japan.
Still in Tokyo.
Still in Azabu Juban.
Nothing has really changed except for the fact that there is now an ugly green-and-Mana-would-die-and-pee-his-pants-if-he-saw-it store down the street.

Well, I lie. I guess there ARE changes...
But the only changes are that my life has become more complex and I feel like I'm stuck in this huge web and I don't know what to do. :(

Japan, what have you done to me?

Anyway, I don't know how much I'll return and update here...I'm kinda sporadic now, it seems.
I'm not even sure if anyone uses LJ anymore?
But...I just might come back around again. I feel like I need it lately. :3
13 March 2011 @ 08:49 pm
I'm not dead, nobody I know is dead, Mana is not dead... Thats the good news, right?

But all of this earthquake stuff...

Watching fuji TV around the clock is just breaking my heart. I feel so sad for all these families who have lost everything and those who have lost loved ones.

Even though I'm still very worried myself just being around here in Tokyo, I wish I could go up to the north and help provide some sort of relief to the disaster. Apparently we don't have to go to school tomorrow and I really don't want to since it might rain -- I'm really afraid of going out in the rain now since all the nuclear stuff... I also get really panicky whenever alarms on the TV go off. I always think "Whats going to happen next??" :(

But so far things are safe around here, so thats only one good thing in the midst of all the bad.
Please keep Japan in your thoughts and prayers. ♥
24 November 2010 @ 07:21 pm
I think just about everyone knows by now, buuutttt its my LJ so I can post this if I want. XD


Yesss yesss yesss! I made it in the GLB for the first time ever!(*_*) And to top it off they put in a gorgeous picture of Mana too!! :D That just...makes my entire day!

Anyway, if you haven't seen already, I also scanned the new GLB photos for anyone whos interested.

GLB ScansCollapse )

As for all the GLB/Mana-related things today has been wonderful, except for one thing...

I have recently run out of medicine for my epilepsy and my mom sent me a refil more than a week ago and it still hasn't reached me. I'm really worried, most of all because I'm having withdrawals and I constantly feel like I'm about to pass out almost all the time now; especially when I walk anywhere. Going to get this GLB today...the book store was only down the road a little ways which typically wouldn't be a problem but my whole body was sweating and shaking all the way there and on the way back I really thought I was going to pass out at any second. I've never felt that bad before, aside from the times I really have actually passed out and had seizures.

My mom wants me to go to the doctor, but even if I did what if they wouldn't give me the same medication I'm on or they decided they wanted to do a bunch of tests before they'd give me treatment? By that time I probably WOULD have my medicine and then what would the point be? :/ To top it off, I'm TERRIFIED of going to the doctor in Japan...

Kanna is worried and she offered to take me to the doctor, but I told her to just wait it out and if I feel I really need to go then I'll tell her.

I just want it to stop already... (;-;)v
22 November 2010 @ 03:02 am
Aww, my movie meme is close to being finished...that makes me sad. I've really been enjoying writing about all these wonderful films...

But I still have a couple more days to go!

Day 28: Favorite movie from your favorite directorCollapse )

Day 13: Something about Japan that sets it apart from anywhere elseCollapse )

Although I'm in the midst of stress, I can't say I'm unhappy.

In fact, I'm EXTREMELY happy right now. Nothing particularly special has happened recently, but I'm just happy with things. The funny thing is, I'm out of my medicine so this strange sense of happiness coming purely within me is a rare gem, but certainly something completely genuine. I'm really glad for that lately, but at the same time I do hope I get my medicine in the mail soon because I'm going to need that. XD

I saw Harry Potter the other night which turned out to be an EXCELLENT movie!! I was really blown away and even felt emotional at some points (I NEVER feel emotional during movies). I can't wait for the second part now.

Oh, and by the way!!

I forgot to add this in my last entry, but I made a new poupee account!

You see, my last account was banned about a year ago now...
Apparently I posted some pictures that were against poupee rules, but when I looked at the pictures that were taken down I'm a little confused as to how they actually WERE against the rules... I've tried contacting poupee but they don't respond to me and they don't have very reliable methods of contact in the first place so I just decided it was time to make a new account. I'm restarting from scratch but at least I can post some nice pictures of my clothes this time. XD

Please feel free to add me because I don't have anyone's poupee contact information!!

Shes ready for bed now~

31 October 2010 @ 10:06 pm
Because the entry is sorta long and I also have a TON of pictures, this is going under a link.
To be honest, since my time with Mana was very short, I didn't write this ENTIRE thing all on him, but rather the event as a whole (but of course theres the part with Mana in there as well). Having said that, please enjoy!

Moi-meme-Moitie 11th Anniversary - Mana Rendezvous 2010Collapse )


Now a cut for an obscene amount of pictures from the eventCollapse )